decisions decisions decisions

For the last two years I have been struggling with finding my place in this world. It sounds so silly when you write it down but I am so torn between staying here in London and going back to Austria.
Don't get me wrong I am loving life but there is a longing for more in this world than temporary bases everywhere.

Help me Jesus!!! 

is all I can say again and again. There is so much more to life than a big city, a job and everybody running around like ants in their colonies!
Maybe I'll go back to my plan of growing veggies in the garden and sewing stuff! Who's up for it???